The end of this week will bring the "am I or aren't I" knocked up drama; my period is due this Saturday. So I don't know if I will get said period, not get said period because per typical I don't get one without Provera, or if I don't get said period because the seed was planted. I am overly eager because some women have been known to conceive right after the hysteropingpongagram, and like I said a few days ago I have already had baby "symptoms". This morning I woke up with a very sore lower back (maybe baby??) but that may have something to do with my jumping jack/squat thrust combo Sunday afternoon. Or it could be period symptoms. That's the kicker with this baby making journey...period and pregnancy symptoms are practically identical. GRRRRRRRRRR. Oh and just because I don't get my period on my own, don't think I don't get PMS symptoms on my own, because I do. Double GRRRRRRRRRRR.
Totally off subject but in line with my GRRRRRRRing, this morning a co-worker bounded into my office to show me a picture of her brother's baby and she went on and on about the labor, delivery, etc. I felt like shouting I DON'T WANT TO HEAR ABOUT IT. I think even if I wasn't going through the fertility challenges I wouldn't care. I made a mental note that if I ever get preggers I will not show people once removed pictures of my child. People don't really care about someone they don't even knows baby or their labor pains. I mean, except for all of you who do actually care about my 'woe is me' baby story and life. Right?!
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I hear you Sheri - I have 10 friends that are pregnant including my 3 best friends (one of them is my sis-in-law). One of them is not married, wasn't even with her boyfriend when she found out. She's very happy and I'm so very happy for her, she's going to be a wonderful mother, but hearing about how it was all so easy for her and now that she's pregnant she's concerned about every pound she puts on... it's just hard to not scream, "IT'S NOT FAIR"
ReplyDeleteEvery time I get a zit, feel bloated, have an ache, I wonder. And every month when I buy a new test and see the damn ovulation strips next to them I wish to the very depth of my soul that I won't have to buy yet another pack of them. Every time I go for a run I wonder should I be doing this? It's so all-consuming.
Saturday was my test day and again negative. So, provera this week and then, my first month of chlomid - I'm really nervous. Thank you for sharing your experience, I hope you can't keep the blog going for long due to pregnancy success, but for now I appreciate having someone to share this with.
- Rebecca