All I Know For Sure...

Well we are 10 days into the new year. I have no idea what this year will bring for us in terms of a baby. I do know in 10 days from now I will be peeing on sticks to test my ovulation. I also know there are times when I still think, "I am okay with not having a baby"; then I find myself crying watching the delivery episode of Kendra. Yes, Kendra, the ex-playboy playmate who is so totally annoying. There should be no crying watching her episode unless it's from your ears bleeding from her laugh, and yet I was all sniffles and tears. They placed her sweet little boy in her arms after hours and hours of being in labor, and that was it for me. Then they gave the baby to her husband and he beamed with pride holding his son, and it was really it for me. Put a fork in me, I was done. Those tears let me know that even though I sometimes think I really don't care, I clearly, clearly do. So 10 days into the new year and all I know for sure is that pee sticks are in my near future and I can not longer watch Kendra.