At The Point...

I am at the point now that when someone asks me if I have children or if I am planning on having children I have diarrhea of the mouth. It has been a question asked so many times in the 2 years I have been married that I am over being coy, embarrassed, reserved or vague in my answer. Case in point, this past week I was in Vegas for a leadership conference. I came down with a nasty sinus infection and had to go to a walk-in clinic; you are not sure what you will find in a Vegas walk-in clinic so a fellow co-worker offered to go with me. While we waited with showgirls and bachelor party boys, my co-worker asked 'the children' question. Without even missing a beat I found myself spewing out the facts...we have been trying...I have issues...its been a challenge...we will see what happens. I figure if trying to conceive has become a part of my identity I might as well keep it real and embrace it. I really have nothing to hide when it comes to sharing my story. As women we feel like failures and we feel broken, but really it is a challenge that we have been faced with, and we are brave and we are fighters, not failures. I just read an article on the plane ride home from Vegas; the article was about Celine Dion and her four attempts at IVF. All four attempts did not work, and even through all the hormones, injections, blood tests, and treatments, she is not giving up. She is courageous. All of us trying to navigate through this challenge are courageous, no matter what course we choice to take. So I am proud to be at the point where I don't care what someone else thinks or feels about what I am going through. I am proud of who I am and the challenges I am bravely facing.